April 25, 2005

Dividing Line

It can be so very tempting at times to just entirely forget the world around you, just give up, break down and walk further and cut even deeper into yourself. It is a forgone conclusion that I need some time off from life, work and almost everything else and figure out how it feels to do nothing or worry about anything at all. That, though, is quite a long way off. For now, I need to keep stumbling on. In a certain way, the point where things are right now is quite exhilarating. I am constantly treading the ever so fine line that divides the two hemispheres, one where you allow yourself to feel the raw, near-crazed high of every emotion, small or large, that comes your way and the other where you have to be in constant control of yourself, lest it should all slip away from you in the blink of an eyelid.