August 07, 2002


I want to hum a merry tune and drown out all the noises in my head
I want to tell a thousand more lies so the truth might finally dissolve
I want to rub hard at my face, erase it and paint a happy picture there
I want to chop my hurting arm off, so that it won't hurt no more
I want to rip and throw away my mind and heart into the drains
I want to be deaf, dumb, unfeeling and mute -- a lump of frozen meat
I want to be happy