April 29, 2002

Of note

1) All the ranting has made my page some 13 screens long. Yuck!
2) Love the new w.bloggar. The best Blogger API client just got way way better.
3) Love the new indie-pop band Kashti, the single "Aage mein chaloon...." just keeps lingering on.
4) Surely Surreal wakes up from her long hibernation. Hope she does not go back to sleep again, she sure does write well.
The arguments continue....

1. if you cannot vote down the same person: Could I ? In this setup ? Does my vote count ? Parties 'd' and 'b' (which are mirror images) can still form a coalition - and make my vote absurd. That is only to give an example. I saw it as a question that has been asked for the heck of telling "you and I are the setup". And I chose not to reply to that. Well, I might not be justified.

• If you think parties can make your vote absurd, why not stand for election and get your point across if the point is pertinent and valuable enough. I guess this is what the Krishna you are so fond of quoting said to Arjuna. You have to perform your duty under all circumstances than to run away or wait for a better war which you can fight on your terms.

You can again say that everyone will sideline you then. Well, the system has given you enough freedom to take the stage for yourself. Now if you cannot take it, that is not the fault of the system and it is also not the fault of the system that the people who are in it misuse it, misuse is the counterpart of freedom. You can misuse the system for the good of the people as much as the bad. So, is the problem that the system gives you too much freedom?

2. I failed to see that intelligence is no different than its artificial counterpart - If I don't mark a passage with the right number then "all" goes hayward :

You can tell "but have you made that attempt? If not then shut up". But I should not reply with "I do this and that". How can I ? I am talking about my private life which CL is least bothered. Or, bothered in a paragraph with a different serial number. Or, what I do could be flimsy enough to fall apart.

• I was asking you to shut up in the case of Nanjappa, for whom you felt bad and you just walked away. I did not ask you to write about Nanjappa and I still maintain that I do not want to know what you do in your private life. But when you voluntarily provide details of your life here that is used as the base for all the compassion that you feel, I do have a right to question it.

You might be the most honourable man on earth ever, but if you commit a murder the law treats you as a murderer not as the most honourable man. Same goes for thoughts, if those thoughts are disagreeable to me, I would not agree with them regardless of how honourable you are or how many others are willing to vouchsafe for you. Hope you get that simple point.

Well, I did not question your integrity or cry hoarse about it just coz someone bothered to question what you believe in, if your integrity gets hurt that easy, well, then the meanings are obvious.

CL does not read more than 2 comments - so how can I reply to point number (6) in comment number '3' ? He can also only cut and paste comments 1 and 2. So FC, _you_ are wrong. You know only to digress and 'float' away.Q: Where is your reply to point 6 ? A: In that same comment box.

• Well, it is not my fault that you did not post the entire comment in one session. Oh yes, that is the fault of the system too, right? As a result I did miss out on # 6 when I was writing the reply. And as far as the Russians are concerned, I will not from this point on answer any questions that you pose back to me when I ask you something.

This is the comment (6) am I with krishna or against ? - CL, you went wrong exactly in one place - that I am with krishna for 'satisfying one definition'. There cannot be a system which can be inconsistent with itself. Krishna did not, for your information, try to eliminate those whom 'he thought or a class thought as being wrong'. No, what I said "wrong doers" is not _wrt_ a system. If jehad terms the west as "wrong doers" - _that_ is relative. Rejection of economic equality in any corner of any portfolio is a _wrong do_ that is 'absolute'. You just cannot deny that. If you do, I will have no more replies. There is no point talking to someone who is not ready to see the first bottleneck.

It is always, in art, in science, in nature, in philosophy, in maslow's laws, in galactic formations .. wherever you point me to, that the exist certain truths that are undeniably absolute. And when that preliminary is not satisfied, you have the reason enough for a "clarify, question, attempt peaceful means, take your weapon" cycle.

And, btw, do you think my post would have been any different if a mohamaddean prophet had enacted the 'Bhagavad gItA' ? do let me know..


• In the first place what you said was Krishna wanted to root out all evil and that is what I am addressing from the first instance, not whatever you come up with later. Answer that first and then we can come around to jehad etc etc. Now, if you run around killing people for what you think is evil, there has to be a definition for that somewhere. And my point is that evil is not absolute, which you too are saying. Economic inequality was not why Krishna sided with the Pandavas. Please do not bend out of shape what I or you have said earlier.

Pray tell me what is this absolute truth you are referring to? I keep hearing about its existence, but what is it? And it looks very silly to me that as you cannot make sense of the primary truth you take to arms with an insufficient comprehension of what it is all about? There is a saying in Malayalam that essentially means that if you cannot get hold of the one who stole the thing, just catch hold of the next person who comes to the scene. This somehow smacks of that. Clap clap!!

It does not have made any difference to me, who enacted whatever anywhere. If I think it is wrong, I have the freedom not to believe in it and to question it. That is the freedom your oh-so-faulty system gives me. And please do not try to give communal overtones to this. For the record I am non-believer, just a very tiny speck on the earth who has trouble comprehending what is seen and known by the senses, leave alone what cannot be.

3. (yes, I know this was not requested for, nevertheless, you have a comment box and I can write - it is not a shrine that I will be un- sacredizing) -- I could employ 100 nanjappas or a 50 more and help them empower. That is norm because I have left out only 1 million other nanjappas. It is an exception however to sit with Nanjappa by Nanjappa in their huts and tell them clearing the sewage is just as good as removing tail recursion from the towers of hanoi problem - that they could earn equal recognition as 'work'.

Dignity Of Labour is an alien in the hearts of millions who have settled - 'such good lifes are not for us'. Empowerment, truly, is in not just mentioning that 'no! that is not true' to them, but also helping them realize it.

• What would you prefer? Being told that you cleaning sewage is a laudable effort or be brave enough to empower him by employing him in something better so that would in turn pay the tuition bills of his children making sure they go on to live better lives? By your terms our politicians are 'Empowering' the whole of the country, they go to rallies and fool a million people by telling them that what they do for a living is as good as 'removing tail recursion from the towers of hanoi problem'. That way you can keep a million slaves and give them daily lectures as to why their effort to the upkeep of the state as important as the meetings held by the King. And if that is empowerment, I am sure you would love to be empowered as a Nanjappa. Guess you got your norms and exceptions pathetically wrong here.

(4) FC, you cannot assume that smilies can be sacrificed when the humour is understood even when it is no underlined or in italics. You have to put a smilie when you say that 'you will get off the screen and shoot CL', because otherwise it reflects your true nature - a psychopath man slaughterer remembering some vaguo krishna.

• You kill me with or without a simile on your face......... The end result is that I died for questioning you. You smiled, smirked... hardly makes a difference. And believe me I do not take it as very funny when someone tells me I'd love to kill you for what you believe in. What if I were to tell you that what you did for the needy was a joke? These are serious issues my friend, they need to be treated seriously, frankly I would not want to be chopped to pieces over someone's joke.

(5) You could say "it is easy to turn a deprived into an animal" but should be ready to be asked "what would you do if you are branded so". You cannot tell that the system has created the deprived in such a cryptic way - "it is easy to turn a deprived into an animal" it seems ! How illogical of you FC, to have appraised CL's post !

• Wordplay does not make for a cryptic system. By the same coin, I can say that the second part of the post that you missed represents something of a bigger evil, but I believe that it is because of a simple oversight and not because of some greater conspiracy theory.

Friend, my point again is that you still are not answering any of my questions, the best you can come up with is more questions in return or vague statements. I have told you before that I am not a very well read person to understand very craftily written things.

So, go through the posts again, give me simple answers or any answers at least, than trying to flood me with a set of questions. Or if you are not interested please feel free to ask me to buzz off (oh damn, the system allows for that too, you can stick to what you belive in and I will respect your beliefs but not agree with them, and please I am not gonna kill you for that, even with a smile on my face)

April 28, 2002

Another floating comment

Here just so that none of us would have to bother reading in the puny comment window........... It strains my eye. :)

CL,
(1) fanatic animalness in you and me: what is this ? I assert animalness is easy to evoke in a deprived person. You come back and say fancy being fed shreds so that the state can be stable... No this first point was so unlike CL's logical writings.

(2) questioning the setup: Re-read my post. *You*, (thankfully I don't need to search further) are the most classic 88c I was referring to - '..not willing to move my lazy butt...' - Do you know that you stand the symbol of all those millions who "click their e(-o)pinion" and feel happy that they have despatched a responsibility ? er.. successfully ?

Least, I am so really proud of you that you admit that you are hardly bothered. I can be included in your gang if you know that I am not doing something about it. I would not try to start the campaign from being in the heart of a city - I will be caught up in the traffic. You did mention the right thing - but with misplaced concepts - I have definitely started with the Nanjappa-s. But it would be a shame if I start a company and employ him. *That* is slavery. That is NOT EMPOWERMENT. The Nanjappas need to be explained how the system has come to be not for them. They understand much better than the literates. They have the reasons, like me.

CL, it is one thing to understand their difficulties. It is a completely different thing to experience those difficulties with them. Don't ask me if I have an experience. I will have to write to you about why I come late to office. I will have to write to you about my visits to Uttarahalli - where I went for finding if the teacher funded by us is doing fine, but ended up thinking and working out how to bring in water for their slum. You should be ashamed of having questioned my integrity. I consider my blog my sacred temple of honest expression - which I am sure you are justified to have no idea of. And that is the precise reason why I shall continue to reply to your comment.

3) the schools teach you equality: But have they helped you realized what it is ? If you are so deluded to think my definition of equality is a morsel of food for the yearning animal - I would like to get into the wires, reach your machine, come out of the screen, shoot you point blank. Thanx for the understanding. I hate violence. But I love the war the student community wages for the rightness of the state. Students are the most gifted part of our society. They keep themselves updated with the latest hit-s/w-language or the name of the first genetic goat. They miss (I have myself missed = which gives the depth of understanding I have now) the importance of what history has shown us. You can wait for the deprived to be so deprived that he becomes your wrongly-used-animal, or you can as the candles of the state take a procession in front of the assembly. You will be jailed, your parents will cry, your grades shall be miserable, your future would have been written with black ink, but you are still on the right path. Remember chandrashekar azad ? Bhagat singh ? They are mentioned as the revolutionists ... how many know them as the most informed students ? How many know what they had done to increase the awareness among the people ? Well they are bombers of a white assembly. That is it. Could someone see through the smoke please and say why they were eliminated early ?

(4) I will be ashamed to have let them grow there - Thanx, that is exactly my post about. The recession is exactly the beginning of it all. I will be flamed with useless replies for what I am going to quote - russia reduced the working days by 2hrs so that the produce comes back to equilibrium with the demand. They did not send people home. Today they do not need a few on the bench. You are going to come back and stupidly reply -- the situation is getting better - it will pickup soon, CL ?


And the underthought reply

Prabu it is very strange that you still have not chosen to answer most of the core questions that I ask you. Infact we have diatribe here which does everything but answer that.

(1) fanatic animalness in you and me: what is this ? I assert animalness is easy to evoke in a deprived person. You come back and say fancy being fed shreds so that the state can be stable... No this first point was so unlike CL's logical writings.
• I am not asking for an evaluation of my reasoning ability here nor how much logical my thoughts are, those are immaterial. This is what I asked. If you can only see the deprived person as an animal and not tell me how you would feel to be branded as the same and be forcefully kept in the same conditions so that the state can be stable? well, I do not get any answers.

All you can say is I do not live up to your high expectations. Sorry my dear friend, my blog is not a temple or a shrine, it does not aim to enlighten anyone I am not an enlightened person nor is it aimed at personal devotion, like I have sad before "I am your average bloke trying to fool the system to let me have a comfy life', the point being I do not have any pretensions, I do not write to please anyone or live up to anyone's expectations, all I asked for was an answer which it looks like you cannot provide. All you do is to just answer it with another question or yet another digression.

(2) questioning the setup: Re-read my post. *You*, (thankfully I don't need to search further) are the most classic 88c I was referring to - '..not willing to move my lazy butt...' - Do you know that you stand the symbol of all those millions who "click their e(-o)pinion" and feel happy that they have dispatched a responsibility ? er.. successfully ?
• I do not care what symbol I stand for good friend, I am just what I am. If you want to misread what I have said as having "dispatched a responsibility" I would suggest that you read again, as you are so fond of saying again and again.

Just go through all the posts and please tell me who is dispatching a responsibly here? You, who would not mind chopping off a million heads so that what you think at this moment as right ("I have myself missed = which gives the depth of understanding I have now", to quote yourself) or me who is questioning the rightness in it? Like you have mentioned, your depth of understanding has changed, what if it changes again after the 30, 000 lives are chopped off only to find that they died for nothing? Or is your problem just with the fact that I question you? Again I do not get any answers other judgements being passed on me.

I will be caught up in the traffic.
• Excuses, excuses. I can come up with a million better ones. So if you think helping a man earn his bread is not empowerment, it is only making a millionaire out him that shall help? Give me a break. Yes, you will make one such case in 50 years, while you let a million Nanjappas rot. Yeah of course the one case will be there.... But show me the norm buddy, not the exception. And pray tell me how you are going to explain it to him that the system has failed him? Oh yes I know, chop another 10, 000 off so that he can put the system right and voila! We are a happy planet.

CL, it is one thing to understand their difficulties. It is a completely different thing to experience those difficulties with them. Don't ask me if I have an experience. I will have to write to you about why I come late to office. I will have to write to you about my visits to Uttarahalli - where I went for finding if the teacher funded by us is doing fine, but ended up thinking and working out how to bring in water for their slum. You should be ashamed of having questioned my integrity. I consider my blog my sacred temple of honest expression - which I am sure you are justified to have no idea of. And that is the precise reason why I shall continue to reply to your comment.

• It does not interest me any bit as to how you spend your private life, this is not a award judge's committee that is going to give you a Nobel or something, all I have are questions to your favoured way of delivering justice. Well, where are the answers Creeper?

For being ashamed of questioning your integrity, bollocks to that. If it gets hurt or falls apart because someone just asked you what have you done for anything. It precisely shows how flimsy it is. Now, do not please go crying hoarse over this, as I did not drag this in, you did and I just answered what you asked me.

3) the schools teach you equality: But have they helped you realized what it is ? If you are so deluded to think my definition of equality is a morsel of food for the yearning animal - I would like to get into the wires, reach your machine, come out of the screen, shoot you point blank.
• Well, my dear pal WHAT exactly is the defintion of your equality? As for shooting me my friend, good that you have cleared your intentions as to how you treat anyone who questions you, I guess this is how you define a discourse among 'equals'. You do not agree with me? kaboom! I will blow your head off. There we have ultimate peace and serenity, no one disagrees as there is no one left who disagrees.

Thanx for the understanding. I hate violence. But I love the war the student community wages for the rightness of the state. Students are the most gifted part of our society. They keep themselves updated with the latest hit-s/w-language or the name of the first genetic goat. They miss (I have myself missed = which gives the depth of understanding I have now) the importance of what history has shown us.

• What has history shown you pal? That thousands have been chopped off for one word or one strain of thought. At least that is what I have learnt from history; that a million holocausts will follow as long as we have people who are willing to "come out of the screen, shoot you point blank" because they do not agree with another.

If that is what you want the history tainted future to be, then I perfectly understand you and your stand that you do have the right to take another's life. Great idea, only till someone else comes with a better right and chops off your head as they do not agree with you. Oh, by the way I would not want to kill you or even think of doing that no matter what you call me, as I for one am sure will never get the answers I for the questions I ask you and I am willing to chase you asking till your last breath is spent in search of those answers.

Remember chandrashekar azad ? Bhagat singh ? They are mentioned as the revolutionists ... how many know them as the most informed students ? How many know what they had done to increase the awareness among the people ? Well they are bombers of a white assembly. That is it. Could someone see through the smoke please and say why they were eliminated early ?

• Remember Floating Creeper who chopped off a thousand heads for the right of one word and was in turn chopped off by a (x) creeper who had another better right to take arms against? Well, no one would remember that yor provided water in a far off village, but yes they would remember you as the best slaughterer we have seen in a while.

(4) I will be ashamed to have let them grow there - Thanx, that is exactly my post about. The recession is exactly the beginning of it all. I will be flamed with useless replies for what I am going to quote - russia reduced the working days by 2hrs so that the produce comes back to equilibrium with the demand. They did not send people home. Today they do not need a few on the bench. You are going to come back and stupidly reply -- the situation is getting better - it will pickup soon, CL ?

• Dear friend, you are a very learned man, but too learned not to understand the language and thoughts of a day to day bloke. In other words you assume too much. Well, as far as the stupid and useless replies are concerned, give the other his chance to speak, you never know for once he might have something to say you might like to hear. Would it not be sad if you miss out on that branding it stupid?

These are two things that I have been asking you since the first posts

I) 2) I am with krishNA, who questions the setup: To be very frank I do give a flying beep beep beep [oops that was some uncalled for French] as to who questioned the set up. Mon ami, you and I are the set up. So if you have to question it, you have to question yourself. We are the system, the morons who have failed you are the same people whom you voted for. If you cannot vote down the same person, or convince enough people that he has failed you, it is you have failed the system and not the other way round. You just want to shift the blame on someone else. Well, where is my answer? I hear only silence other than details of your life which frankly I am not bothered about.

II) The US used biological weapons on its own men: Err.... where do you stand my dear pal....... one moment you are all with Krishna who thinks it is best to chop off all the people alive so that one definition is satisfied.... and then you go and criticise the person who does the same thing.... US did it coz it was standing in its own right..... To stop communism was its dharma... to protect the sacred capitalist shores of America. ..to provide the same stability that you so value..... now am i dreaming or is there something not so right here? This is my not
A floating response

My essay was too verbose to fit into the comments window at at FC in response to this post and the comments that followed it. So it goes here.

1) fanatic animalness: Ahem, but that same animal is there in you and me too... If you can see that animal only in a deprived person, I'd suggest that you give up all the money that you have, stay hungry for a few a days and when you run out out of dust bins to dive into, you would see the same fanatic in you. I do not think you would fancy being fed shreds so that the state can be stable then.

2) I am with krishNA, who questions the setup: To be very frank I do give a flying beep beep beep [oops that was some uncalled for French] as to who questioned the set up. Mon ami, you and I are the set up. So if you have to question it, you have to question yourself. We are the system, the morons who have failed you are the same people whom you voted for. If you cannot vote down the same person, or convince enough people that he has failed you, it is you have failed the system and not the other way round. You just want to shift the blame on someone else.

Nice try, but it does not quite sell with me.. .. Amitabh spewing the same rubbish on screen for 3 hours is barely tolerable..... but this is.. uhm..... Now, my heart does not bleed profusely for any of these........ I am your average bloke trying to fool the system to let me have a comfy life, a system flawed by the people who run it [read you and me]. As long as I am not willing to move my lazy butt and vote the same ppl down... ... I do not have a right to crib anywhere... Geez you do not need to kill 34. 000 ppl to make Nanjappa happy mate, just dump your job, set up a small firm employ him, that is definitely easier than killing some 13 thou poor sods right? You can have all my valuable time to crib your heart out then.

3) It should all begin there. We as students have failed to do our most critical responsibility - ensuring a stable state: The schools also teach you to treat everyone equally, if the poor sod on the street is fed barely enough to keep the 'animal' in him calm, that is not equality, that is not a stable state.. that is slavery with a set of brain washers ruling the brainwashed.

4) A riggable-vote: You have a problem with people rigging the vote? Go to Purnea in Bihar and stop the rigging there if that is what bothers you so much. My point being do something than sit around and criticise the system. There will always be a better system like the better written book, but have you made that attempt? If not then shut up, we have more than enough people crying hoarse about all of this. For Chrissakes if you cannot survive in a democracy, where will you survive then?. It is the society that manufactures the political system not the other way round. You cannot blame the pot for being the shape it is in, blame the potter my mate.

5) ...business tycoons and all industrialists...: If they are line up one day, I will be ashamed of having letting them grow till there.... of having wasted my time blaming the system than doing something concrete....Well, that is if I was bothered at all with changing the system.... now that cannot be done over half an hour of relaxed thought with the morning cup of tea, besides this contradicts big time with the stability that you have been looking for.

6) THe US used biological weapons on its own men: Err.... where do you stand my dear pal....... one moment you are all with Krishna who thinks it is best to chop off all the people alive so that one definition is satisfied.... and then you go and criticise the person who does the same thing.... US did it coz it was standing in its own right..... To stop communism was its dharma... to protect the sacred capitalist shores of America. ..to provide the same stability that you so value..... now am i dreaming or is there something not so right here? This is my not so humble conceited opinion, cheerio ;-)

April 27, 2002

SleepingCreeper

I guess the title is self-explanatory as to what this post is all about. FloatingCreeper has gone into hibernation over a post and the comments that followed it. This is not an apology note or please come back note. This is just an explanation of where I stand. Feel free to flame me, love me or hate me. But as sure as hell I am not going to shut this place down... well, as long as Ev lets me have it.

One, this is the public domain, you do not want people commenting on your blog then mark it private. Jot it down in your diary, but please not on a public blog. Being public you do not have any right to say this all that I will entertain. You cannot place a page on the net as public and then say "do not come here for so and so reason". Well, unless if you are hosting porn.

Of course, you will come across a lot of stuff that is not desirable, you will be misinterpreted as the norm rather than the exception. Hell yea, 90% of the time the things I write here are misinterpreted. But, the only responsibility that I have towards the reader is for me to be honest to myself, the rest I cannot and will not be bothered about. A while back, a fellow blogger, was royally flamed over what she had written. She offered an explanation as she thought she was grossly misread as it all came out very wrong, but we all lived on. Now, everyone has had the chance to understand her better and maybe she puts herself across better too now.

If we were to get only desirable responses, there would not be any need for the thing called as discourse. How wonderful it would have been if we were to agree with each other on all the things. But the basic reason why we as humanity has come the tiny distance we have travelled in all these years is because we have learnt to live with differences than to run away when we differ.

Coming to the issue, I had seen the post. In fact, I started the whole business starting by positing the first criticism. I also got to see the 'offending' comment. It was a bit overboard as far as emotion was concerned, but most of the points that were raised were quite genuine and if the message and the intention in the post according to what its author says is good, then he should defend it. Besides, the issue that was being discussed was not something very simple, it was very grave.

A lot of the things that went wrong in the world had good intentions. The US nuked Japan with the good intention of putting and end to WW II. They wanted to wipe out a certain race as another one was thought to be perfect and yes why not? we should only have perfection in this world. The concept of white man's burden is also rooted in the so called good intention. Yes they all were right standing in their own points, but they were also indefensible if you were to try and see everyone as equal, the point that FloatingCreeper and Socialism have as their core idea.

Now, I would not like such a noble idea to be counted among all the wrongs in this world as the author is scared of disturbing the general peace in the area. If a bit of ruckus makes the silence in the night more deeper, serene and peaceful, should we not be aiming for it than to hide in the shadows for the fear of being seen and heard?

April 26, 2002

Signs

Does all the stories out there tell you a story?

AOL Time Warner Needs a Strategy

Merger costs weigh on AOL earnings

Looks like we have an online version of Enron in the making.

April 25, 2002

Life

A set of inconsequential random and rare moments of happiness joined together by swathes of mundaneness.

April 22, 2002

The real power

This story, Athlon XP-64 phones home [please refrain from reading the article Syl :-p], on the Inquirer represents something very new in bringing publishing power to the average Joe sixpack on the Internet.

Till now weblogs were touted as the best solution as far getting the publishing power to the average person was concerned, but the major problem with weblogs is that with so many of them around you do not stand much of a chance getting noticed, especially if you are new to the Internet.

What is new about the story that the Inquirer has published is that it was written by one of the regular readers of the site. Now, what is so new about that? There have always been letters to the editor columns but this has to be a first as far as a reader getting to write what he feels like.

Yes, collaborative weblogs have always been there on the Net, but the point is Inquirer is run by Mike Magee, who is one of the most respected techie journalists in UK, and his small team. The site is anything but a weblog.

Well, why is this important? Picture this. In another two to three years the Indian blogging community becomes really big and the NYT wants to run an article on it. Normally they would have done an interview with the authority on the subject Dame Bora, but once the Inquirer phenomenon spreads she gets to write on NYT. A scenario that would be impossible in the traditional print world.

Now that is real power to the people.

PS: As far the writing quality of the article mentioned above goes....... it is horrible.......
Sense

It is the magic elixir that promises the ultimate high........ a five letter word....... so simple yet so elusive......... it is called as sense.

Someday everything will make sense....... rather it has to... at least I hope it will......

It peeks at you from behind shadows that you have left behind...

From the promise of what lies beyond the next corner...

It is a girl who teases you with her giggle from behind a maze of trees.......

It is beautiful like the rainbow that lies beyond the valley, encompassing all that you can see and have known till that moment.........

But the moment you get near to hold it and know it better from close quarters, it just vanishes.

It is there in the flower that you almost held....

The elusive half breath that could have saved your life....

The word that always remained at the tip of your tongue.......

In the moment that you walked away from......

In the peak of your happiness that you did not realise.....

In the peak of sadness that you never thought you would survive...

Like the blind men and the elephant so many words and descriptions have chased her

Yet, she is the best manifestation ever of the phrase "so near yet so far"

One day she will stare at me........ right here in my arms............

Nothing will matter then.......

All the shadows, words, flowers and rainbows would vanish.........

I would become her and she would become me and everything else would cease to exist

Till then I would chase in vain..... wondering at the paucity of words and other things..........

April 18, 2002

The Squeeze

Was kinda shocked when I waded my way to News.com today. Another 20%-30% of the main table has been eaten away by a huge, scary, in your face, blooming, tall flash advertisement. Mommie I was scared!

Wonder how long it is before they are going to have just ads on the main page and the news as a pop-up window.

Yes, I too got hit by the Google API. Thanks to eagle-eyed TP, who informed me about it two days before it became the rage all over the web. Checked out a few of the PHP based implementations. Think I like what I see.

Since it is a beta service and a limited product as of now, I do not expect it to last for long and as far as the innovation element goes Blogger has a lot many more working implementations out there.

But what it does is to bring the power of web services to the mainstream and yep lots of free goodwill/publicity for Google. But you have to admit, not many firms will put up their main treasure -- the index of the webpages that they have, open to be used to by all and sundry [non-commercial all and sundry I must add ;-)].

To see a simple implementation of this just add on to your MSN messenger this id: googlematic@interconnected.org and message it with the phrase you want to search for. Warning: The bot often does not work because of the 1000 queries per day limit that Google has on now so the earlier you get there the better your odds are.

April 17, 2002

Us

Why is it that we always choose the easier way out when given a choice between the tougher but being true to yourself way and the easier but blame it on someone else way? My strongest belief is that such a trait is ingrained into our nature as human beings. I have been discussing this with my friend for a while now, but I am yet to get any answers that would let me believe otherwise.

History is littered with instances where the ordinary man on the street has had the power in his hands to change the course of civilisation to one where things change for the better and individual responsibility becomes the primary means to an existence where choices are made by the individual for his own good resulting in the collective good of the society.

But the common feature in all such crossroads is that, once there, people always tend to divest this precious responsibility in someone. In other words, take the easy way out. Once the leader has the power of too many destinies in his hands, he becomes power mad, history repeats itself, the inevitable revolution follows a new leader replaces the old.

Yes, there certainly is a gradual qualitative change that comes as a result of this. But that is not my point. My point is that why do we have to consciously choose such a destructive path for miniscule relative changes, when we know that we can have something much better only if we were to take responsibility for our actions. The first reaction that most of us show when confronted with a mistake is to look for a scapegoat -- "No I did not do it!"

There are people who love to lead and others who love to be lead on. The former often get all the blame for being in the lead while reality is that the latter often consciously put their destinies in their hands and go scot free of any blame because of a supposed ignorance of their own state.

Take a look at what happened in the United States after 9/11. It is almost shameful how majority of the people there agreed to let go of their personal freedom to obscene levels provided that they could all live with their 9 to 5 jobs, eat the Big Macs and not have a care in the world. Whatever happens after that can be said as the price for that thoughtless level of existence.

In a way the US is not a very good example as far as personal freedom goes, but since it is often mentioned as the most 'free' country, I thought it would be a good example.

In daily life too we are confronted with so many instances of "I do not want to know", "It is so yuck" or "My mom told me so". We are just too willing to not find out for ourselves. It is comforting to be led on by someone, to have someone to take all the decisions in your life, blame someone else for the decisions that are made in our lives. Even when given a choice most of us will not take the opportunity to take control of our lives.

We always have the politician or the system or just good old luck to blame it all on. Very few have the guts to say "Okay this is bad, but I can make it better". And this is where I guess we fail as a social system, a nation and and as the world. Other than the genes, I cannot come up with any answers. If you know any, pelase do let me know.

April 12, 2002

Second thoughts

A week back when I took the mini break, I thought it was a one-off. Back on the habit, I find now I have nothing to write about. No new perspectives, all the observations have gone stale. Finito.
Best of Henley

It has been ages since I have listened to Don Henley's The End of the innocence record. For some unknown reason I was reminded of these lines. I wonder why.

The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning again
From "The hear of the matter"

But I know a place where we can go
And wash away this sin
We'll sit and watch the clouds roll by
And the tall grass wave in the wind
Just lay your head back on the ground
And let your hair spill all around me
Offer up your best defense
But this is the end
This is the end of the innocence
From "The end of the innocence"

April 09, 2002

Return of the blogfant terrible

After a week of partly unsuccessful attempts at making a multi boot of my new box at home I think I can say with some level of conviction that I am back. Well, the PC was not really the reason why the blogging was put on hold. It was that I simply did not want to write stuff just for the sake of writing.

There is a limit to which one can tell others that you brushed your teeth at so and so hours and other inane details.

On the other side it becomes a bit tedious if one is to confirm what one writes according to what the audience would like to see. There has to be a middle point somewhere.

But there is also the existence of a chain reaction somewhere in the blogging community. Very few blogs exist all by themselves. Most are part of a small community of blogs or are large ones having a huge community of readers who comment on them, keeping the discussions alive.

So, when bloggers like Ashok, Mahesh and the MadOne cuts down or completely stop posting, it does affect the average level of activity on the scene. Somewhere it soon starts resembling the chicken-egg question. Does the audience drive the blog or is it the other way round?

On the issue of the new rig at home, I too am stuck with a MicroModem at home and just saw at the company website that it is not supported in anything but the Win 9x series, not even the 2K series, so Linux support is better left unsaid. But I am going in for the safe option of a cable modem soon. It is too much of a hassle to maintain dial up accounts, with the expenses being a totally different story.

/.\ & FC: I do not want to keep a Tux distro for the ease of use, especially since I want to install the packages that I need from source and that too where I want to. Mandrake and SUSE are kind of going more the Windows way as far as burying the core is concerned. The maximum thrills I have had maintaining anything is Cygwin, just that on a dial up that is not possible to get the whole 200MB package.

Agreed, it is kind of like reinventing the wheel, but there is a hell of a lot of fun in it. Anything to work in it needs a bit of fiddling and tweaking. Think I need to check out Debian or the little red daemon some day for my primary set up at some other time. [My million apologies to Syl on the tech bit in the post, kya kare control hi nahin hota :-p and a huge welcome back to her :)]

April 01, 2002

Break

I am on a mini blogging break till Wednesday night. Time to smell the roses I guess.

Update: I am extending the blog vacation due to a stubbornly misbehaving new computer at home which refuses to confirm to my intentions of running this, this and this at the same time.