January 04, 2002


I have a strange feeling my life is spinning out of control. I am just holding on to the edges wherever possible. Everything is getting to be just a blur. The new year has been horrible of late. I have a feeling something is going to give pretty soon. I am exhausting my precious little stock of sanity at an alarming late.

The few things that I hold on to to give me direction are giving away. People that I rely on suddenly are begining to look like strangers. Is it some conspiracy or just that I have been making bad judegements all my life? I have been wrong, but it cannot be possible that I have been wrong all the while no?